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I would like to send out my prayers of happyness and renewal to him. He was in love with a girl that left him for her ex man. His friends like her better with her ex, so stopped being friends with him too. Everybody left him and he tried to kill himself. I am going there today to show that he's still loved and that he is really a good person.

That I am fucking BEAUTIFUL with my energy work when I have wine in me!!! hahah, It's sad to admit, but I told my donor that I was going to feed from them from a long distance when I was on the phone and right when I got off the phone they felt an automatic pull. Hahah, I'm sorry, I'm just happy to know that I'm that powerful, I feel like Hancock cuz he's always drunk when he does his super power thinggy.

Since we have broken up and I first accepted him as my swan, he knew exactly what my intentions were. He knew that I never viewed him as a mate any more yet he still wouldn't get over the fact that we are over. He knows I care for him, and that's why I always deal with his bullshit. What he needs to realize as that my life does NOT revolve around him. I have other shit I need to do and I even recommended he find himself a new girl to get his mind off bullshit. He doesn't though, he's too fucking hard headed to give anybody a chance. He thinks he's fucking vampyric already but he's NOT! I refuse to turn that mother fucker with all this bullshit that he always brings me and his kin into! I will NOT let him be a part of my house with all the fucking things that he does and the actions he chooses to make! I give you fucking chance after chance and I'm done this time, seriously. You are not worth it. I don't want to be stuck with you any more, I don't need you as a swan any more, I don't need you as a nadja any more, and I deffinately will NEVER bring somebody who has as much bullshit and drama as you do into my house!!!

I am ok with my energy work, but a part of me just feels unsatisfied because I know I can do a lot better. I try to practice a lot, but seem to only be very good with one thing, and mild with others, and shit on others lol.

I am incredible when it comes to dream walking, but only when I'm really focused. I also do it a lot subconsiously. Now, what sucks about energy work is that a lot of the things you want to try and accomplish in vampyrism requires meditation, which I am complete SHIT at lol. But maybe I don't astral travel, I'm just really good at feeding from long distances.

I am pretty good with giving energy as well and transfering it. People that are all tired and such, I just embrace them and deep breath and in a way, force feed them my energy. It works a lot when I try.

I suck at feeding on energy, so much that I just think it's not for me. I know I am a primary blood feeder, but I just hate not being the best that I can be. This means that I really need to find a way to feed better psychically. I have practiced so much and still don't see results.